Dream dream dream

Dreamt that I was at MSF's house for reasons unknown. Next thing I knew, the gf and I were lying motionless in a river. I was alive but my body wouldn't move. MSF rushed to the scene. He saw us and I was crying inside for him to come to me. I was scared and next thing I knew, he swung his arms around me and held me. He was so worried and upset..

I was touched that he still cared about me. Remember how he told me that he would come meet me if we were supposed to even if it'd caused her displeasure. All cos we made plans first : )

He was always this righteous and manly..

At church today for 7.15pm mass. Particularly like the prayer after communion as it reminds me of some encounters with selfish/competitive people who are constantly critical and fault-finding with everyone but themselves. The prayer as follows; Jesus, I love and adore you. You have come to me; I am one with You. I want You to remain with me forever, in this life and in the next. Thank You for allowing me to share Your divine life. May I become more like You through this sacred Food. Let me never take You for granted, but always pray for those whose lives are dark with sin and ignorance and selfishness. Let me remember, in the words of Saint Paul, that "there, but for the grace of God, go I." Each day, I can become more like You, O Lord. And each day I can pray for those who have never heard the Gospel, or who have heard it and rejected it. Amen.

Friends

Got reconnected to an SO friend lately. Discovered that we had lotsa similar interests and hobbies that we once picked up but left it where it is due to unforeseen circumstances. Is this what they call.. U win some, you lose some. So I won another friend by losing a friend of mine. Ain't no fair trade if you tell me.. But what my PO Uncle Bakar would have said. Life goes on.. Whatever decision you make in life, I respect it. I just didn't know why you left without any explanation..

Wearing a new dress I had saved for an occasion that never did happen. Excited to go for a drink that if feels like I'm out on a hot date.. but wtf it is no KPO/LOOF/LANTERN BAR but a freaking korean bar. What in the world is that??? Anyway shld be fun with the gang.. Went and there are my thoughts. If you are there solely for drinking then it be fine. Cos the songs are all from the CD and everyone is minding their own business and just drinking. Once in a while you'll see some korean girls that are pleasing to your eyes. But no, they will not notice you for they are there not to see or be seen. So says my friend who was there with us. He who had worked with Koreans for years and stayed in Korea for work for long too.

Got out of the car in one swift movement and grazed my knee. It stings.. and I realised that I was bleeding. Some skin had being left on the car part below the wheel.. How worse could it be? As I laughed it off and took some pics of the blood stained tissue.. Then came the unexpected. Taken aback. Hurt. Really succeeded in making me feel so lousy and how bad a person I am. Why do you bring my family into the picture when you could just settle between us? I hope it makes you feel better that you have succeeded in making me so upset..

Today is your special day. Hope you are happy..

Luke 16:10-13

At church today for the 5pm mass and heard these words of wisdom..

"The man who can be trusted in little things can be trusted in great; the man who is dishonest in little things will be dishonest in great. If then you cannot be trusted with money, that tainted thing, who will trust you with genuine riches? And if you cannot be trusted with what is not yours, who will give you what is your very own?

‘No servant can be the slave of two masters: he will either hate the first and love the second, or treat the first with respect and the second with scorn. You cannot be the slave both of God and of money.’"

On the train

Haven's been taking the train for a couple of years. Supposed to meet a friend at Orchard MRT and i forgot to change at Raffles MRT and ended up in Bugis MRT, had to switch at City Hall and finally arrived at Orchard MRT! Crowded train though it was around 4+pm. My friend Claudia laughed at me, saying: "That shows how much you have been on the train!" Man..

Like a drug; more I see you, more I wanna have you

The much dreaded day has finally here. Though it aint as devasting as the big 3-0, it was still like a bomb landing on an already wasted piece of barren land. I am 32, yes. Sad but true. Why are birthdays depressing? I conpiled a list of factors. . 1. Looks fade. I for one do not second that as I think I look better with age haha! I used to have weird makeup techniques which included having too thin eyebrows.. blond hair.. drawing my eyes halfway.. 2. Expectations are not met. As a perfectionist, I am gd in organising birthday bashes and other special occasions but tend to get disappointed should my birthday be something effortless 3. Less pressies. I still want my Chanel bag sobs 4. Health deteriote.. more prone to headaches with a wamer climate 5. Memory lapses. I never had a decent memory and now I xan barely remember what I ate yst 6. More responsibilities When we were young, we get away with almost anything. Nowhmy every little word or behaviour may affect others and ive to try to be more sensitive though the other party could be over sensitive. On a recent gathering, I spoke a lil more to a friend and my other friend screamed and banged the table twice. My heart nearly popped. 7. Guts I used to only fear roaches and now im fearing people, things and the unknown. 8. Target of people When I as a child, I dont remember relatives giving a hoot. Now I have people asking me when im gonna marry. And when I marry, when im gonna have a kid. And when I have a kid, when im gonna have another kid. Worse, these questions usually come from singles and people with more than 1 kid and they are very proud about it. Stop asking for the millionth time! To the singles, please worry about yourselves first. AND to the married with many children, I know you are very keen to spread the importance of having more than one child. And that "always good to have one boy and one girl mindset"

The time has come for me to be trained.. wilk need to attend courses at Toa Payoh again! Signed up for a 2-5pm course coming tuesday. Happens to fall on yoga tuesdays! My last elementary yoga session with Elina. After that hope to be able to take up yoga and get the teachers cert.. Go easy, Valerie!

After couple of lessons, today I asked my yoga teacher, Elina. Yes, she is Elina. Apparently I got her name wrongly as saw that name in the printout about yoga and wellnesa she gave haha.. As I was saying, I asked Elina what is xi qi and tu qi. She is always repeating during lessons. Is it breathe in and out? Through the nose? And whats with the tu-tu-tu thingy during breathing during warming down..when would I know if I have to breath out via my nose or mouth? She answered me with a smile and told me that those breathing techniques were taught to the same students who had attended her elementary yoga lessons for the 2nd time! But she would be glad to share with me next lesson :) anyway all my mind was thinking of this: why the heck would you wanna attend elementary yoga doing the same damn thing? We should be progressing to intermediate doing hewd stands and all what.. Funny people! The ambitious streak in me is acting uo again..

No more heated arguments, differing of opinions and raised voices anymore. Perhaps it is for the better. Perhaps it is meant to be like this. We just don't talk anymore..

Riding the waves @ Wavehouse, Sentosa

Today is my 1st time flow-riding again after some years!

Learned a lot from the Eurasian staff who patiently asked if I was a right hander. If I was a right hander, I had to put my right leg behind me for ample support. The staff is such an expert that he could go up the waves to retrieve a misplaced surf board and back down again to put it in place. Impressed.

Anyway he is cute and so patient! I managed to stand for quite a bit and navigate left and right to keep the board in place. Yay! Well done, Valerie! Whoo hoo!

Anyway the staff in the pictures isn't him.. he went for his break haha! Sorry ladies ; ) PS: If you're thinking of flow-riding, pls protect your modesty! My bikini bottom rolled down by half, thankfully it was concealed by my black shorts which only rolled down a little haha.. But well well, I was still unglam having my eye makeup smeared, looking like a lost panda. And my falls were all dramatic and on my neck/head though I broke the fall.. Nursing a badly sprained neck now! Hurts when I drive or even cough..yikes!

Before the ugliness: Me sitting pretty and enjoying my OREO Ice Blended..

And so the action begins!

One hour of surf is up!

(Tip: Go on a Wednesday and get an hour free with an hour purchase! One Hour @ $40.00)

Hatha Yoga - Elementary, Lesson 1

I remembered going for yoga lessons when i was younger, with my mum and aunts. Now you must be wondering which prestigious yoga school did I go to.. Truth be told, they brought me to Sri Mariamman temple, the oldest Hindu temple in Singapore!

The person who taught us was an Indian guru (who else do you expect..hee!). Intially, I was doubtful looking at this indian guy clad in nothing much but a white loin cloth. He was old and skinny.. but I changed my mind upon seeing him do the shoulder and head stand!

With my short termed memory, I cannot remember how old was I when i did yoga there! Was it before or after my time in the SPF? (Perhaps i shall check with my mum later hee..) My 'links' with this temple goes a long way haha! Memories of doing duties for Fire-walking and Thaipusam.. it was prolly after one of these overnight duties that my ex asked me out for a date when I was a little glassy eyed in the morning..

Anyway, back to the topic of Yoga.

It was just 30th July when I was talking about my interest to take it up again to a friend. He too wanted to take lessons with me as he had previously taken yoga on and off. I wasn't sure if I had the passion to take it up seriously or not so i thought i had better sign up for some elementary yoga lessons before doing the dive.

So on the 2nd of July at 6.30pm, I found myself at the 1st lesson of Hatha Yoga, conducted by Living Yoga. The lessons were in Mandarin, but I didn't want to wait till late July as my birthday was drawing near and I hope to graduate by then haha. Here I am, on time for lessons..even had the time to run to the ladies to change into my long Adidas tights!

Where I used to attend with Mum, she was always late to bring me haha! And we would have missed part of the lesson! Anyway, it's just the 1st lesson and I hope that I can be punctual for all Tuesday lessons! *Pray*

I was telling the teacher, Linda if she could possibly speak a little English during lessons and she said she'll try. Lesson commences. There were about 5 of us, excluding the teacher. I was the youngest, the rest being Aunts and Uncles from their 40s. Linda told us that we all learn Yoga for all sorts of reasons and told us that there won't be any dramatic movements as this is only the elementary course.

She is rather nice and cheerful. The only thing is, when she was doing some of the poses prior to lessons to give us an idea of what to expect, I was wondering if her polo tee would dropped exposing her chest. What the heck.. why am I having weird thoughts?!? And while doing the poses, I was thinking happy thoughts when I was supposed to be clear of all thoughts if I'd really focus - which I eventually did.

So she did make an attempt to explain in English, but strangely she only translated those simple one or two words. After a while, she rattled on in Mandarin and I had to look at her to know which body part she was talking about! Luckily, she did check on me and manually helped to move me if I was getting it wrong.

As usual, i didnt perspire. I am one who hardly perspires.

But I do feel great! Though I did go crazy and ate dinner and ice cream and potato crisps (the one that looked like fries) and loacker (mini)!

Looking forward to next Tues lessons!

PS: I wonder when I can learn how to do head stand.. only managed two seconds in the past when paranoid Mum quickly told me to get off the wall, worrying that I may break my neck..

The Singing Bone - Hello Kitty

Drove down to Tradehub 21 yesterday at 11.30pm upon hearing from my gf that people are already queueing for The Singing Bone at the 24 hours Mac so they can buy it at the struck of midnight! What?!? There I was and all the kitty coupons had already given out where there hundreds of hopeful people. Some stubborn people still queued, waiting for a glimmer of hope though staff had repeatedly announced NO MORE HELLO KITTY! Went back empty handed. Today, 7.15am: Am at Science Centre and was just outside the Mac but they had only 120 pieces in stock. Meaning that 30 people can buy 4 kitties and the stock will be completely wiped out! Oh no, small and ulu mac also means small supply of Hello Kitty : ( Approached a group of guys (and one fierce looking girl), all sporting tatoos of all shapes and sizes. One of the guy agreed to get one for me if they manage to get some. They queued from 3am. But alas! The stock depleted ahead of them. Saw another two golden hair boys behind the counter with 4 each in hand. And seemed like they had some coupons in hand. And they were kind enough to let me have one! So nice of them! So who say's Singapore men do not have chivalry? You are so wrong! In fact they can be very sympathetic and kind.

Anyway, some hilarious comments from my FB friends after i posted the above pic in my FB : ) Thomas Tan This is power of girls.. if it's a guy who asked.. probably no hope. . Lolx Yesterday at 09:02 Valerie Wong You know what? There was a guy who saw what I did and approached the two golden hair boys. He wanted one two.. but they rejected him. But I understand cos they queued from 12+am! People may think of them as ah Outlet only opened 8am today. Before that, a lady approached a 40+ yr old auntie but the lady rejected loudly. Colin Phua: Pretty girl usually has more privilege Yesterday at 09:13 ================================ Thomas Tan: Colin, I fully agreed with u Yesterday at 09:22 ================================ Stephen Chong: It's more accurate when you take the 'usually' away. Yesterday at 09:27 ================================ Daniel Tan: You must have flashed your megawatt smile at them lar... Yesterday at 10:42 ================================= Tien Goh: Kns Yesterday at 11:53 ================================= Ariel Ng: 120 pieces, meaning onli 30 pple will get it if everyone buys 4!! Yesterday at 13:34 ================================= Valerie Wong @ Ariel Ng: I arrived there, I was so pleased with myself to have chosen the right ulu outlet. I was just queuing outside the Mac. Then I decided to take a look inside and heard the mgr pointing to the centre of the short internal queue that the kittie...See More Yesterday at 14:16 ================================= Ariel Ng: Lucky u! Yesterday at 14:22

Hailstorm in Jurong

Dark clouds were hovering and in the blink of an eye, lightning flashed repeatedly in the skys and thunder roared menancingly. The winds bellowed and howled, rattling all the doors and windows though I had them shut. It seemed like the end of the world as I took a peek, sliding the window open to see the tall and fully grown trees swaying like they had lives of their own. I thought that a tornado had hit the earth. We huddled in the living room with the quilt over us. Water was spewing in the little windows of the bathroom though they were shut and locked. After a while, the winds became less tyranic. I looked out of the door and saw broken and fallen trees. The roads were jammed on both sides. My neighbour's flowepot has dropped to the ground with some plants uprooted. Some car bumper was stuck on fallen plants and people were trying to put their motorcycle upright again after it dropped to the ground. My call was met with awkwardness and I was dismissed as being dramatic before the line got cut off. Yeah yeah yeah. Me the drama queen apparently. On a funny note, across my block, there was a man sitting on his AC unit..after the hailstorm of course! Lol

Soup Chef

Recently into making soups so ta-daaaaa! My creations: Chicken Soup with Century Egg Some of you may go," Century egg is disgusting! It is preserved in Horse's urine!" I beg to differ, this is just a myth! Take a chill pill! It's just eggs that has been preserved for days/weeks. Though there isn't much benefits derived from eating century eggs, you won't look like a horse or smell like it's pee for sure (la!) Another creation, the Cod Fish (Bone) Soup. The original recipe uses the bone of the grouper but I think Cod fish is healthier and more economical than eating Cod Fish if you ladies wanna save $. At least you still get nutrients from the bone, though not the flesh haha!)

Guess what, it's Wednesday! No Ladies night tonight though haha cos my gfs wanted to meet at Opium Bar for drinks. I had my favourite poison as usual. Not much of a poison though.. it's Strawberry Daiquiri! Haze was 400+ but that did not deter any of us from a ladies night out! But we were "impressed" with a caucasian couple who sat outdoors throughtout their drinking session.. So romantic, not! *coughs coughs* Seriously, my eyes really hurt when the haze gets high..

I should really be sleeping instead of checking my whatsapp and facebook by the minute..

Sunday at the Beach

My client says that Wala on Sundays is nice. So here we are, at Wala Wala on a Sunday night. Omg EIC is playing today! Oh wait, its Jack and Rai so its accoustic. They sound so different wo the band. Nowadays they seem a little distant compared to them with them at timbre. Mellowed too. Perhaps they are trying to appeal to an older audience. What older audience, people at wala wala can be teeny boppers these days! Nevetheless, here we are with a bottle of Framingham Riesling. I love love love this riesling. So sweet that the other way to derive this kinda sweetness would be from Ice Wine already. Dag didnt know what to drink so introduced him my favourite drink. The daiquiri. My favourite is Strawberry. The arrival of dear Michael means its time for some "serious drinking." After Riesling, we had chardonnay but it aint as good. And the kroeneberg didnt make it better. Seeing stars already and I accidentally spilled wine from a glass. I was a little stunned at the impact and my folly. My drinking skills has gone down the dumps. Didnt recall much of the events thereafter too. Meeting the guys gave a sense of dejavu. When I was 21, we were just trainees in our polo tees sweeping up dried leaves, lazing in our bunk beds takking. Playing vollleyball. I was all so innocent, blushing when there was a song being dedicated to me over the resident dj at the mass. And another time when one of the senior officers approached me at the canteen. Yeah we had sneaked into the canteen to buy food cos dear Jess was sick of mass food. I wonder if we would ever have the chance to meet had I not been there. How would life have changed had we met at a different place Would we have stopped to smile or say hi to each other?

Marriage is the graveyard of love?

People say marriage is the graveyard of Love. This is because after we get married, the love, passion and desire for each other will slowly dissipate into thin air. Perhaps it could trigger from living together and learning about each other's way of life. Leaving things lying around, not taking out the laundry, hogging the television, not flushing the toilet or not putting the toilet seat down. The last one gets to me the most, haha! I remember reading a message that my friend posted in FB. That only bastards leave the toilet seats down while urinating so as to save the trouble of flipping it up and down. That shocked me a little. I do not think of men in generally as bastards or anywhere close even if they were to do such a thing. But it does annoy me knowing that you are co-existing with someone female and peeing on the toilet seat. A man should have some form of chivalry by putting the seat down. I don't expect the man to open the car door on my side if i want to get out of his car - I am not so demanding la! Though once, a guy whom i dated did that. It made me smile. But i'm not all flattered and flying to the sky and back ok? Men who pays for dates do get my votes. This i reiterate to my single gfs all the time haha. But take note, pls do not expect them to always bring you to fanciful restaurants. Be considerate! Marriage is the graveyard of love. I do not subscribe to that. In fact, i think having a baby is the graveyard of love/marriage. Don't get me wrong. I think babies are the biggest blessing from God. Having a baby is a milestone for me - I am someone who usually cant be bothered to play with other people's children. I mean, i do not flutter to newborns saying: "oh! So cute!" unless they are really blessed with good looks nor do i know the baby lingo or at least do the actions that people do. Touching the chins of newborns and go "tsk tsk tsk". It just change my perception of marriage. Nowadays, i'm just contented to have a peaceful marriage and maintain my blood pressure level. The baby is a gift, but sometimes i can't help but wonder how it had destroyed my marriage. But well, we all learn. Destroy is a strong word, perhaps jeopardise? Lol. Maybe it's meant for us to learn to cope and grow together. Therefore, i urge couples to date for a bit before deciding if you are gonna get married. Perhaps by the 5th year of the relationship, you should get married and bring the relationship to a higher level. If not things will prolly get mundane. But if you are thinking of having a baby, then perhaps you should enjoy at least a year or two of marraige before having one. Unless you, as a woman are pressed for time - getting old very quickly and childbirth would prove dangerous by then. If not, pls enjoy the marriage, at least for now!

It's raining

Weather is good but the mind is not. Face cleansed by the tears gone by

*hugs*

Tonight I'm thinking of Mr Stern face and hugging him and it put a smile on my face.

Nothing lustful, just felt like a hug and I got one. Just thinking of it.

Oops, am I in trouble?

At night my thoughts run wild

Though united, we are apart
Though together, we are separate
Though present, I always think of the past
Though family, we look like strangers
Though near, we seemed so far.

Are you ready for marriage?

I should have seen this before I got married.

http://articles.lovingyou.com/love/7-things-to-consider-before-you-get-married/